You are not to blame for what I’ve become, You
who abandoned me, wounding me, forever, leaving me to
Travel from border to borderline between comfortable numbness and stark despair
Alone in my life have I become …
Distant and disconnected from the mother who could not love you, condemned you to feel unlovable, to find love, but not joy, to give love, but not keep it: keeping your distance instead you kept it vague, until you faltered and fled, abandoning us all.
A little girl alone with her witch mother,
Her anguished childhood, lost, to the terror of war, Sharing her, sorrow and shame I see her enduring what I could not have survived,
But you, a frail little girl were resilient, it took her time to break you…
The little girl I never knew, who I am helpless to help, comprehended, or forget.
Who haunts me, following me, She leads teaching me, that
Love is not what you give, it’s who you lose,
keeping only no one to lose I follow her,
losing her, losing her,
I am lost
Loving now only those who won’t let me in I keep them out.
Keeping only what was never mine I have lost no one,
losing no one, living alone.
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he wants to be part of .
Its skyscrapers jagged edges
etch their way across his mind.
From the tenement top
he can almost touch them.
Leaning an inch, two, three,
too far, he’s falling , falling
throw him back to try
in desperation, driving him, again
and again, until fatigue defeats him.
Then with arms hugging folded knees in despair,
he watches darkness descending
on a dimming distant skyline.
He’s an Armchair Quarterback,
the best in the league
He’s played in every Superbowl
and won some in overtime.
He’s handed it off to Czonka
and thrown touchdowns to Swann.
This Sunday afternoon he’ll do it all again.
But when the game is over leaning back in the armchair,
he feels the years catching up, while youthfulness pours out.
Like an open field runner, running out of gas
Too many hard hits, warm six packs take their toll
Battling late into twilight a table lamp by the armchair spots the room,
six o’clock sports lull him to sleep of future seasons, dreams of glory.
Where dreams of future dreams are all the dreams there are.